"I always thought you were a dick"

I have heard that phrase manyt imes in my life. I haven't yet pin pointed a reason as to why. It's either due to my social anxiety, my shyness, my inability to make or enjoy crappy small talk, or that I used to walk around campus with headphones on. Whatever the cause most people find that I am, in fact, not that much of a dick when they get to know me.

Yes, I know that I am a bit of a dick from time to time and I can be more of a bastard a lot. But, in general, people find that I am a pretty likebale guy when they get a chance to find out more about me. I guess I can take a little stock in that.

On the hand, have you ever met one of those people that seems to know everyone and, at first glance, everyone seems to like them? But once you talk to people about them or get to know them you realize they are just huge bullshitters? Like they have a wicked Eddie Haskel vibe and no one really considers them a friend? They know everybody but don't really know anyone? Those people?

You know. Dicks. Bitches. Whatever you want to call them. People with emotional problems, usually, who desperately want everyone to like them but do the bare minimum to actually know people or gain their trust and loyalty.

I can't stand people like that. Pretty much I live my life in a way that people know when I want to know them because I find things out about them and remember those things. If I don't know you, I don't know you. I feel a little lucky that I will not die with a few people wondering whether we were friends or not.